I sit in my corner, screw in hand, listening to the sound of my ripping flesh. I should scream and run away, but instead I sit and watch as I do it again, and again, and again. I just watch as the blood flows down my hand and starts to drip on the carpet. I should clean that up now, while it's fresh, but I'm too depressed. Cutting is like a drug, every time I cut I need more, and then more, and then more, until I'm chopping half my arm off just to distract myself from the real pain. Now it feels like my arm is on fire, and I can't stop it. But then again, I'm not sure I want to. The fire feels good, like a phoenix's sleeping on my arm. Yes, I like it, but it's too bad. Now my arms just gone numb. I can't feel it at all. I guess that's a good thing, the phoenix was growing a little too bright, but now I can't fell the rest of me. I start to panic as I realize that the pool of blood has gotten too big, to the point that it's soaked through my hoodie and jeans until they are both dyed red. I need to jump up. I need to get help, but right now I'm just too sleepy. I think I'll shut my eyes for just a second...
"And in other news, a teenage girl was found dead in her room yesterday morning in a pool of blood. Police aren't sure, but it looks like apparent suicide. Lets go now to our live feed from her school."
"I just can't believe she's gone." a little girl said crying, "She was my best friend and she had so much to live for. This is all our fault. We all noticed the cuts, we were just too afraid to tell anyone..."
"She was so bright, I can't believe she wasted it all. I never got the chance to tell her, but she finally made a perfect score on the SAT. If I had just told her one day sooner..."
"The girl's mother, Joy, has just committed suicide by hanging. Her psychologist said that her daughter was her entire life, and she most likely couldn't live with her absence."
All of this I look on from down below, but I also saw what most did not. My mother rising up to heaven, while I was stuck in hell. I was the cause of all this madness, I deserved punishment, but her only crime was loving the wrong person too much. I want to watch to see who greats her, but before she reaches the light I hear a voice over an intercom. "Sara, your punishment is ready." I turn around, to see my biggest nightmare waiting for me through the door. This is what I deserve, Eternal pain.